The feedback I've been getting has been very positive and encouraging. It's also scary at the same time, I was also reluctant about writing another posts. The reason for being reluctant was that I didn't know how people will receive my future posts. I think that's normal though, we always wanna do better than the last time. I felt like I've raised expectations and I didn't know how I could live up to them any more ( self-inflicted, right?). I was thinking about ways on how I can stay relevant to the people that have read my blog. Those were the things that were on my mind as I replied to a fellow comments on my previous posts. I believe them when they say we create our own demons, unnecessarily.
It's only now that I realised that I missed the point. Going back to basics is one thing I do in my life whenever I feel like I'm at the crossroads, that's when I ask myself why I started what I'm busy with at first place. I started this blog to create my own space where I can simply express myself. Having people to read and comment is a plus. This was a moment in which phrases like 'get your priorities right' became so vital. I was being unfair to myself and people around me. I was paying too much attention to people's expectations that I forgot my simple mission: to be just me and nothing more. I was going against the same 'values' that led to the establishment of the blog. I felt so bad as I thought about it later.
I believe I have nothing to prove to anyone. I don't need to please anyone at my own peril. I've seen celebrities losing themselves as they are striving to be what the public expects them to be. I've seen preachers compromising the truth for the fear of public judgement. I'm not willing to bear a burden of what people say about or how they see my blogposts. Mine is to stay true to myself. My greatest joy will come from knowing that people love what I write because it is genuine and honest, not from how many views and comments I get. I've seen what Facebookers do to get 'em likes, and how they lose their originality in the way. Not that I want to be Public Enemy Number 1. I just don't want to get false comfort from knowing how people love my work, because that was not the main goal.
Back to compliments again, they are good and we all need them ( I still wonder why the Bill Of Rights doesn't include them). They are also bad though, especially for someone like me who easily gets ahead of himself. They can make me feel very arrogant, and feel I've achieved something while I have not. They make me complacent and that's why I never do well in my 2nd tests and final exams, if I did well in the first test. You know, like the cheers from the fans in the stands making you think that you've won the race?. What if I'm not as good as I think about I am?. Who will I be when the cheering stop?.
One basic formula for happiness in life is to know who to please. In this case, I have only three people to please, and it's just me, myself and I. If I please anyone else along the way or someone can relate, that's a bonus and it's much appreciated. I will try to stay humble and put no pressure on myself. There's no pressure in being myself, as that's the best person I can be.
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